17th January, Saturday.
No sleep last night. A friend had come over. Watched 'Snatch' and 'Oye Lucky, Lucky Oye'. Neetu Chandra's 'Sonal', reminded me of her the entire time. Especially the latter half of the movie. 'Khana khaya' was exactly like her. Oh she's a darling and I think I'm dead. I so want her all the time. And I love the feeling. But, she makes me feel inadequate when she's not around. I so want to be self sufficient, I feel defeated. Something is wrong. They say, 'when you are in love, you enjoy the loneliness'. But, I'm suffering. She's like heroine, I need my dose. And she kept asking me not to get addicted, she knew this was coming.
18th, Sunday.
Not too eventful. Went to a concert in the evening. Was ok. Performance by Mohit Chauhan, from Silk Route and, Neeraj Shreedhar of Bombay Vikings. Went to work. She called at night. Didn't know what to say. Was not sure what she wanted. I'm not sure what i want. May be , I just want to see her happy.
